ellosteph:

It still hasn’t hit me yet that you’re not here anymore. I don’t know why this even happened. I don’t know who’s fault it is, because it definitely is not yours. I don’t know if it’s anyone’s, or if this is just life doing something horrible for no apparent reason, and we all will just have to live with it. 
It still hasn’t hit me that the one girl who made me feel anything is possible is gone.
We may have had our rough roads, but I’m glad we ended knowing we still cared.
I never stopped loving you, and I never will. Maybe not in the romantic sense anymore, but you pushed yourself into my heart, and you stayed there. You’ll always stay there.

You were hands down the most amazing girlfriend I’ve ever had, and you know that.  I hope you do. Even when fighting cancer you made me a priority. You sent me letters with little surprises every week, you sent me flowers for every show you couldn’t see. You loved me like no one else ever did, and maybe like no one else ever will.

I wanted to text you so badly yesterday knowing you were going into surgery, but I didn’t want to bother you. And now this is something I’m going to have to live with.

Breaking up with you those months ago was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. It broke my heart too, but I knew it wasn’t fair to you to be with someone who was still grieving over the loss of her mom, and just was numb to everything. 

I’m glad we got to clear the air though before you passed.
I’m glad you knew I never stopped caring.
I’m glad to know you never did either.

We have a lot of good memories Randi.
Like that day after Diva Invasion. I was completely dead after being the volunteer coordinator for that show, then drove 3 hours with Kayla at 6 in the morning just to see you for less than a day before you left back for New York. We went to that Japanese zen garden you love so much, all the way near west palm. Your eyes smiled that whole day. And when we went to your park and just talked for hours. And when we watched all those disney films. Or how we’d just laugh, and smile hours upon hours for absolutely no reason. 

You wouldn’t let cancer, test tubes, chemo, radiation, anything, keep you down. I honestly know there is not one person who could have fought any harder than you. 

I still have every letter you ever wrote me, every picture you ever drew me, every memory you ever gave me.

And I’ll keep them forever
Just like I’ll keep you forever in my heart.
I will always love you Randi 

Never Give Up Never Surrender 

(via ellosteph)

jennaanne01:

I feel bad for all the people who are just now realizing how hot Kristen Stewart is. YOU ARE LATE MY FRIENDS.

(Source: lightthefuze)